was feeling pretty stoned this morining, until i decided to go online, and got reminded of what's gonna happen tmr. argh. and now i'm blogging with a heavy heart. talked to shikai last night, and he told me he would actually be happier if he retained. cos then, he can leave nanyang feeling more justified. i guess people would actually want to receive the bad news then the 'good' news? cos that would mean staying ard in this school isnt it? i dont know what i should expect. i want to promote, you know for the sake of promoting, but something inside me tells me that this JC thingy is just not for me. just pack your stuff la cheryldan, you should be somewhere else, not HERE. well tmr i will know. just gimme the news seq, good or bad. people will be crying tmr, i wonder whether i'd be one of them.
i dont want to see any of my friends crying.can still remember angelia crying when she got her 'o's results. 12 points! she was so happy, she cried. wonder why i didnt cry that day. hormone probs ba.i dont usually get affected by grades, but it's make or break. shall pray hard tonight for everyone.

i dont want to have any regrets in life.
unfortunately, i've already done too much of that.
it's so hard just to get myself to speak up, to say what i feel.
in the end, i say nothing at all,
and he or she doesnt even know.

nothing lasts forever;
it's true.

0601/0701/poly/a place i can run to and hide from the rest of the world.